An Article about Tuth

What is true cannot be decided on by a committee or by popular opinion, it can only be it discovered by committed seekers. Let me explain. The laws of physics words discussed in a boardroom and voted upon as true and false, they had to be discovered. Physics doesn't conform to our formulas, our formulas were designed through observation of physics, are formulas were made to explain and understand physics, not to create its laws.

A belief or personal opinion means nothing unless it conforms to reality. I can say, there is no such thing as the rocky mountains, a whole country could say there is no such thing as the rocky mountains, they are a myth. Their belief would mean nothing to the actual existence of the mountain's.

Beleifs not conforming to reality can even be dangerous, for example I can believe a centimeter of ice will support my weight, I can put all the faith and confidence into that I ice but it won't change the truth of the matter. When I step out onto the ice I'm going to fall through.

It is a popular opinion that there is such a thing as my truth and your truth and they can be different but that's OK. This isn't possible. Nobody designs the world around them by their beleifs, the world is as it is and it's not going to change whether you do or don't believe it. One person could very well hold the right opinion, and another hold the wrong. One beleifs correct the other incorrect. That may not be a very popular opinion, but is what's popular always right?

Now the issue this has been building up two, is there a God? Suffice it to say, if there is, there is and nothing you can say or do will change that. If there is a god, he is who he is and you can't decide on what he's like, what his principles are, the extent of his involvement with humanity or what he intends to do with his creations during and after their life on earth. If he is, then he is, and he is as he is with out your opinion on the matter. If there isn't there isn't. But it would be most beneficial for you to know the truth of the matter because the answer to this very simple question influences every area of your life: your thoughts, actions, morality, and purpous for very existence hinge on this question many dismiss far too easily

I know what I believe and I know why I believe it, I think about it every day and regularly do more research. I am a truth seeker. I will not be satisfied with cliche answers or popular opinions. Ultimately, I would like to challenge you to know what you believe and why because it could be that your believing a lie.

11 Weeks Pregnant

Wonderful scent

So, a great start to the new year. I had a wonderful time at "specken dicken" the new year's tradition of delicious hearty pancakes served at grandma and grandpa's for lunch. Later in the afternoon when most people had left I went for a nap in the far spare bedroom. I lay there in that cold room under all warm blankets breathing in the smells of growing up and fond childhood memories from days I had visited and slept there. I listened to everyone visiting. From that room I could hear everyone downstairs, in the dining room, kitchen, and living room. I fell asleep enjoying the peaceful sounds of my family and smelling the wonderful scent of old memories.

7 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)

New Year Post

A lot has happened this year. I went to Mexico, started working at countess place, graduated, got married, moved out of my parents' house. Through it all I was trying to read through the bible. I was more often ahead and behind.

So, a new chapter of my life begins, and new year. But this time, most of my decisions have to be brought up with Wade as well. It's been a year of many spiritual up's and downed. Some of these things have been recorded in my blog entries this past year. I've got lots of hopes for this year. It's my hope that I'm following God's plan for a relationship, I'll be able to follow His plan for other parts of my life.

Today, I'm full of hope. I can't say the whole year has been so wonderful. I felt crushed and hopeless many times. Just after getting married was very hard for me. I was homesick, and scared of having to take control of my life and direct my own path of. I felt hopeless because I figured I'd never be able to do what God it asks me, or maybe, God wouldn't ask me to do anything because I'm not faithful. Anyway, this has been a pretty rambling entry, but it's a record of what has come to mind thinking about the year.

The Mexico trip was amazing. I can look back on that as a blueprint of what my daily walk with God should look like. We ate together every day, met together for prayer every morning, had morning devotions every day, had a study every evening. Each day we did some work of help. I tried handing out tracts to people and reading them to them, I asked a lady how to pronounce Spanish words so I could.

What a beautiful eight days of my life! I dreamt of starting a mission trip to Portage, of inviting my neighborhood into my home for bible studies, of handing out tracts and telling people about Jesus, heaven, hell, and god. These are my dreams. They're even bigger than I can put on paper. I dream of Christians who would sell everything and live together, meeting every morning for prayer and evening to share and learn. Each day to go out and share the gospel and lend help.

I have a plan for the next 90 days starting tomorrow. I hope two: choose a one day a week to fast, read through the bible, pray every morning, read and learn from " the love dare"

7 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)

Religion:

Introduction:
If it's false:
Who invented it?
Why did they invent it?
How can it be confirmed as false

If it's true:
Who learned about it?
How did they come to know about it?
How can it be confirmed as true?

Religion is a way of seeing the world. It is a set of beliefs concerning cause, nature and purpous of the universe and offten contains a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.
This set of beliefs if it is to be taken as true, is responsible to consistently and logically account for any and all questions that may be asked of it concerning the origin and authenticity of the beliefs origin and the answers to life it is claiming to be.

The belief must answer to it's origin (where it came from) becuase truth must be found, it can't be invented.

It must answer to your questions because it claims to be that answer. It claims to be your answer for cause, nature, and the purpous of the universe, so it better answer questions concerning those things and it better be consistent with what is known and evident about cause and nature.

Ultimately, this belief must answer among others, these questions:
The earth came from somewhere, where did it come from?
Plants and animals came from somewhere, where did they come from?
Humans came from somewhere, where did they come from?
All matter came from somewhere, both living and nonliving, where did it come from and how did it come to do what it's designed to do (one example of countless: cells splitting, hair growing only so much in diamiter then only growing in length from there, same for fingernails, and the growing, development, and aging of living things each predictably in it's proper time)?
Besides simply functioning living matter, humans have minds which are composed of but not limited to: thought, conscience, reflection, observation, comparison, decision, respect, hatred, compassion, empathy... where did these come from?
All nature is governed by unbreakable laws (physics, chemistry, etc) where did they come from and what is keeping them in place?
People have a sense of right and wrong, where did this sense come from?
What is good, why is it good?
What is evil, why is it evil?

Why can't we not ignore these questions and simply believe nothing and just live life? Because without belief where does our moral code come from and what governs the conduct of human affairs? The questions must be asked because there there is injustice and what is just can only be determined by a moral code which cannot be determined without beliefs.

Conclusion:
These questions have been asked because there has to be an answer. We see the end result, but we want to know how it got there, and if it's there, it must have gotten there somehow according to cause and effect. We see the effect and wonder about the cause. Where do babies come from? is prompted by the effect of seeing a baby, because the baby is there, it must have gotten there somehow, so the question is asked: "what is the cause."
because science shows us, everything makes sense, the world functions because it all works, it will continue to work wether we know how it functions or not. But knowing how it functions can be of great benefit as we have discovered in the field of medicine, chemistry, and even physical fitness as some examples.

The answer's have great significance to the way we lead our lives, what we think and what we do.

There is an answer for every question that has been prompted by a cause and is asking for the effect (because it's impossible for there to be an uncaused effect). it's just a matter of finding the right source.

7 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)

Wade's 22nd Birthday

My stomach felt absolutely misserable today. Wade and I went over to Jed and Lindsays for a visit and I threw up about three times, I couldn't even keep down water it was gross.

In the evening Mom and Dad took Wade, Jed, Lindsay, and I out to the Keg as a late celebration for his 22nd birthday. Unfortunately I was still feeling awful which made everything on the menu pretty unapealing. I did manage to enoy a glass of red wine though.

Afterward, Jed and Lindsay took us all out glow bowling, first time glow bowling, third time bowling, good stuff.

2 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)

I love my husband

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WADE!!

Since it's Wades birthday today I'm writting an entry all about him, how much I care about him and think of him as a very standup guy in this fallen world. We have been a very blessed couple. How few couples in history get to select their marriage partner and have this beutiful and intimate desire to be together? This is the way God intended relationships to be.

I am looking forward to a life spent with Wade. He's a thoughtful and affectionate husband, a concerned and devoted friend, and a faithful employee.

He's sincere about whatever he believes and allows his beleifs to influence every area of his life. which is an excellent quality especially when paired with another fine quality of his, teachability. If what he believes can be logically challenged he will change his perspective, especially if it is some truth from the bible that is questioning his mindset.

He's devoted to his dreams and can sacrifice smaller joys for a larger purpous.

I'm constantly amazed by how attentive he is to both myself and the people he cares about around him. How willing he is to drop whatever his priorities may be for that day or moment and do what his wife or friends need right then instead.

I also have to commend him for being an excellent provider and taking good care of us. We can pay the bills every month, do grocery shopping, and on top of that we've been blessed with a house two cars and all the clothing we need, maybe a little bit more on my part =3 . Thanks Wade for your hard work.

I hope in this marriage I can be a blessing from God to Wade, as I submit to him as the man in my life, and leader of our life to come. As we delight in and struggle through work, play, relaxing, learning, and all the other wonderful and at times confusing things of life, doing it together side by side. Trusting him as the forrunner in each situation.

And this going out espcially to Wade, More than telling you about these things, I hope you can see them in my life as I grow in maturity.

How's it been going

Still haven't managed to get a regular or decent bed time going, but I am getting better about waking up at a good time and not taking any naps, eating well is not as I would like it but is definately better and yay, I've been sketching again. I've been going through some art teaching books from the library my art has been stagnant lately and I hope to make some progress there.

One of the things that has motivated me to get up and do these things is something I read recently in the bible, "A slacker's way is like a thorny hedge, but the path of the upright is a highway. Proverbs 15:19"

I got to thinking about this, a thorny hedge is difficult to navigate through, but on a highway you can speed right along, the slacker thinks their taking a short cut, not doing work or what is necessary, but their short lazy way is far more difficult than if they had just done things the proper way.

I think of how I would like to read and study the bible more so I understand more about God and what He says, I want to know Him more, I'd like to spend more time in meditation and prayer, I'd like to learn more about art, more time studying art books and doing sketching excercises, I'd like also to memorize, but so often I figure I need a little more sleep first, or get on the computer and wittle away a couple hours browsing and on facebook, instead of personal study or meditation I listen to sermons, and when my head won't take in any more sermons I listen to christian music, and when I can't take in any more of that I go to classical and jazz.

I want the satisfaction of accopmlishment, I want wisdom and knowlege but these small satisfactions and educational puruits that take minimal effort get in the way of my greater satisfactions and understanding that take hours, days, weeks, and years of concerted concentrated effort, and this slackers way is thorny. If I just had the dicipline, I'd be on the highway instead of wrestling through these thorns.

August sunset in Portage close to where we've been living

I took this picture as a resource for a drawing a want to do some day