Lenny the horse

I was invited to go into Winnipeg with Lindsay and Deanna to shop for some horse accesories for Deannas horse Lenny. There was so much lovely shiney new horse stuff there, I wants a horse =D

Brushing the pretty boyNew blanket, halter, and lead rope

Sleeping life away

So I thought I would try something out the first of last week which would be the sixth. I was going to focus intentionally for two weeks on the things that I want to accomplish especially with an emphasis on the waking up early, getting to bed at a good time, eating well, and ecxercising. With the rest of my list falling in line somewhere among those.

Update: Tuesday, Week 2

• Waking up early... 8:30-11:00 AM that's terrible, I'm going to sleep my life away at that rate.


• Bedtime for all days of the week... 12:00 - 1:30 AM and no, that is not what I consider good time


• Eating well... the first two days


• Excercising... VICTORY, yay, I did my whole weekly routine without skipping a day.

The thing is, as soon as I'm done all the good things I have to do in a day that add up to a great thing later I can do all the other things I wanted to do instead of mill around stalling the whole day, what a waste of time, ew. Like yesterday I woke up at 10:25, quickly neated the appartment before the staff meating at 10:30.

Already I wasted a good three hours sleeping but I didn't redeam the time, I got onto Sims and started building a house, "oh, I'll workout later, read later, draw later, use my brain later bla bla." guesse what, four thirty rolls around and I'm still making the little house perfecting every d-tail. Fortunately I had arranged to go see Deannas* horse, so Deanna, Lindsay*, and I took off at five and hung out together until like, 9:30. Then Wade and I helped Lindsay and Jed* clean their house.

We got home at 11:00 but I didnt' get to bed until 1:30 as usual, it would help a lot if our wash machine wasn't broken. In the evening we remember that it has to be done so run it 10 minutes out of town to my parents house. On the plus side while it was washing I did my workout I had put off all day.

I kept thinking, "what a waste of a day, why couldn't I have done this earlier, oh well I'll do better tomorrow." That got me thinking about life. I once heard two old people talking together as me and my sister passed by, one said to the other, "there's a few more things I would have done if I was young like that again." the other said, "isn't that the truth." So I deliberated that you can't say, "what a waste of a life, oh well, there's always next time," like you can with a day, your young once and old once, there's no cicling begining like there is to a day.

As for today, I already woke up at a good time, 7:30, and have finished half of my workout for today. It is just about 10:00 and I'm off to a good start.

*Deanna is Wades brothers girlfriend, I was in one of her classrooms at school.
*Lindsay is distantly related to Wade from his moms side and married to Wades cousin on his dads side
*Jed is Lindsays husband and Wades cousin on his dads side

The Portage Fair

Tyrone with Medori and Izzy doing that firepower thing Catherine, Izzy, Medori, and Tyrone... loving his moneys

My idealistic world

Things didn't go exactly according to plan today, but improvisation is the way life works eh? It all began in the morning when I discovered Wade didnt' have to work, I can't get up at 6:15 if he's going to sleep in until 9:00, first part of the plan, goodbye.

There are so few things in a day that above all other things that may happen, I want to see them done consistently, among eating and cleaning house, personal hygene and taking care of pets, and of course driving, five things need to be done, just five.

However, it seems wrong for some of those on the priority list to take presidence over relationships and conversations. What really matters in life is people, I mean seriously. So offten I wish that I could live the exemplary life I have all worked out in my head, and I'm not talking fancy car big house on a beach kind of ideal, that's not my sort of dream.

The optimal life in my eyes would be one saturated with contentment and gratitude, not being surounded by appeasing situations but to be content in whatever circumstances. Instead of rushing around keeping myself busy or entertained every moment of the day patiently enjoy each task and when there isn't anything necessary to be done:

• Find a quiet place outside or in my home and meditate


• Sit outside on the front porch and soak in the nabourhood


• If there's people around make a point of dropping things and spending time with them

Ultimately I desire a life of commitment, do the things I really want to do instead of what's easy. Satisfation from Sims, TV, and movies comes easy but is unlasting, it's humdrum and empty it's composed of false goals false acheivments, getting to know people who don't exist, living a whole lifetime in an hour creates discontentment to live this real lifetime minute by minute. This pleasure has no lasting value because it didn't cost anything.

Comparing the lasting joys of dicipline to instant gratification of the passing whim

1. eating well and excercise vs. food and lazyness


2. reading, writing, and studying vs. electronic entertainment


3. social interaction vs. electronic entertainment


4. meditation and quiet thinking time vs. electronic entertainment

Conciously pick the ones on the left and be on the way to having a life, continue to pick the ones on the right and spend this short lifetime in a world that doesn't exist.

Hopes for tomorrow

It seems to me that morning is the most inspired time of the day, "aha! There is surely a new world out there to conquor today, a different one than yesterday. This day, I shall do all that I wanted to do, First of all, the omnipresent to do list running in the back of my head, secondly:

• Eat healthy
• Excercise
• Meditate
• Read and study
• Spend less time on the computer, more time socializing
• Maybe even brush my teeth (ew, gross I don't brush my teeth enough)
• Go to bed at a decent time

By evening a sense of realism, or possibly, a false sense of realism sets in and the lines between today and yesterday and tomorrow become a little less clear, "well, yesterday I got away with doing this" and, "there's always tomorrow after all" and for some reason it's between five and nine that I will eat cookies, coffee, donuts... hop on the compy and play Sims 3 a couple of hours, "Mreh, there's no more time left in this day to do do anything anyway" four hours later, 12:00 AM, I supose I should be getting to bed now... etc

It's in the evening that the high hopes I had for that day, pass on to hopes for tomorrow, I'll do better at all the things that matter tomorrow, really I will. "I have high hopes for tomorrow, I'll even wake up early, 6:15, do my workout, make hubby a lunch, read for a while, and be awake and alert to help the guys on the construction site by 9:15, I'll even bring them ice cream"

Yes, it's 1:14 now, and I have high hopes for tomorrow

I've got it good

I've really got it good. From looking in some people might say we have it rough right now, but I know otherwise.

We began this new adventurous leg of life with the best foot forward. On the wedding day Wade was extremely considerate of me and making sure the whole thing went as perfectly for me as he could make it, and as I was floored with this romantic surprise, I returned the favor. He had no attitude of "you give I give" but rather one of genuine love, I followed suit and also took this stance.

Attitudes like this are hard work and difficult to maintain, they require time concentration and effort and as with many attitudes come in waves of dedication, here a while gone a while. This time it persisted a good two weeks, just long enough to be on the recetion for the honey moon.

Let me tell you, we had a few "trials" that week, if you can call them that. Really though, how can you call it trials, we're out in the beutiful Canadian scenary with all the delicious food we could want, gasolene, and shelter, I mean c'mon what more can you want? Just cause we only caught two fish in four days of fishing, after driving three hours to a new lake on the fourth day the boat trailer broke and we had to wait in the car for help three hours (six hours sitting in the car) and cut the whole trip short... oh no the worlds coming to an end we have it so rough... I'm kidding

If we're kicked out of the house because of renovations: it means we own a house and have wonderful people who are willing to work on it for us, If we catch no fish: it means we have the time and freedom to sit in a boat on a beutiful lake and listen to the birds. If the boat trailer breaks: it means that we own a boat. If we have to wait three hours for help: it means there are people who care about us enought to drive so far.

I'm not meaning, "make life perfect by looking at the posative side of everything" because sometimes there really is no posative side, I just realize there's a need for gratitude sometimes.

Relaxing in the Prairies

Kick off the sandals and chill

Our sweet ride, 2003 Hyundai TiburonKevin caught a little sucker Wade and Jed chatting, and looket that Lindsay has a fish!
I'm not fishing, I just like enjoying the sunshine and scenary