First Sight

Spring Break at Gull Lake

My parents planned a vacation to gull lake, a camp in Alberta my family had worked at summer 1999 and winter 2000 before moving to Portage. I was very excited to go a long unfortunately however Wade was not able to make it because of work.

We spent one full day traveling, and have been here one full day already. Travel the eighth, went to the West Edmonton mall the ninth and today we're doing work projects.

Wade and I have been able to have some pleasant conversations through text messaging. I was able to keep him up to date on what we were doing each day. While I was gone he bought sandwich groceries, kitty litter, and worked at cleaning the house, exciting I know. Our little cat, Dooms, was in heat and annoyed him the entire time I was away.

17 Weeks Pregnant

Dealing with Daily life

When I'm angry and struggling with situations in life I know I can't do anything about my only option seems to be letting it sit and bitter in my heart. While I'm unable to do anything, God is capable of doing everything with it and healing my hurt. I know this, but for some reason giving up the feirce grip of negative angry thoughts is still so hard to do.

"You are the salt of the earth, but if the salt should lose it's taste how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world, a city on a hill cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and puts it under a basket but rather on a lampstand and it gives light for all who are in the house"
- Mathew 5:13-15

14 Weeks Pregnant

Good News Confirmed

I had my suspicions, but as of January 26, I know for sure. The doctors confirmed Wade and I are having a baby. He's suggested a name for a girl and I like it, I've suggested a name for a boy and he likes it now we have to come up with the middle names. Currently we are keeping the names a secret.

12 Weeks Pregnant

An Article about Tuth

What is true cannot be decided on by a committee or by popular opinion, it can only be it discovered by committed seekers. Let me explain. The laws of physics words discussed in a boardroom and voted upon as true and false, they had to be discovered. Physics doesn't conform to our formulas, our formulas were designed through observation of physics, are formulas were made to explain and understand physics, not to create its laws.

A belief or personal opinion means nothing unless it conforms to reality. I can say, there is no such thing as the rocky mountains, a whole country could say there is no such thing as the rocky mountains, they are a myth. Their belief would mean nothing to the actual existence of the mountain's.

Beleifs not conforming to reality can even be dangerous, for example I can believe a centimeter of ice will support my weight, I can put all the faith and confidence into that I ice but it won't change the truth of the matter. When I step out onto the ice I'm going to fall through.

It is a popular opinion that there is such a thing as my truth and your truth and they can be different but that's OK. This isn't possible. Nobody designs the world around them by their beleifs, the world is as it is and it's not going to change whether you do or don't believe it. One person could very well hold the right opinion, and another hold the wrong. One beleifs correct the other incorrect. That may not be a very popular opinion, but is what's popular always right?

Now the issue this has been building up two, is there a God? Suffice it to say, if there is, there is and nothing you can say or do will change that. If there is a god, he is who he is and you can't decide on what he's like, what his principles are, the extent of his involvement with humanity or what he intends to do with his creations during and after their life on earth. If he is, then he is, and he is as he is with out your opinion on the matter. If there isn't there isn't. But it would be most beneficial for you to know the truth of the matter because the answer to this very simple question influences every area of your life: your thoughts, actions, morality, and purpous for very existence hinge on this question many dismiss far too easily

I know what I believe and I know why I believe it, I think about it every day and regularly do more research. I am a truth seeker. I will not be satisfied with cliche answers or popular opinions. Ultimately, I would like to challenge you to know what you believe and why because it could be that your believing a lie.

11 Weeks Pregnant

Wonderful scent

So, a great start to the new year. I had a wonderful time at "specken dicken" the new year's tradition of delicious hearty pancakes served at grandma and grandpa's for lunch. Later in the afternoon when most people had left I went for a nap in the far spare bedroom. I lay there in that cold room under all warm blankets breathing in the smells of growing up and fond childhood memories from days I had visited and slept there. I listened to everyone visiting. From that room I could hear everyone downstairs, in the dining room, kitchen, and living room. I fell asleep enjoying the peaceful sounds of my family and smelling the wonderful scent of old memories.

7 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)

New Year Post

A lot has happened this year. I went to Mexico, started working at countess place, graduated, got married, moved out of my parents' house. Through it all I was trying to read through the bible. I was more often ahead and behind.

So, a new chapter of my life begins, and new year. But this time, most of my decisions have to be brought up with Wade as well. It's been a year of many spiritual up's and downed. Some of these things have been recorded in my blog entries this past year. I've got lots of hopes for this year. It's my hope that I'm following God's plan for a relationship, I'll be able to follow His plan for other parts of my life.

Today, I'm full of hope. I can't say the whole year has been so wonderful. I felt crushed and hopeless many times. Just after getting married was very hard for me. I was homesick, and scared of having to take control of my life and direct my own path of. I felt hopeless because I figured I'd never be able to do what God it asks me, or maybe, God wouldn't ask me to do anything because I'm not faithful. Anyway, this has been a pretty rambling entry, but it's a record of what has come to mind thinking about the year.

The Mexico trip was amazing. I can look back on that as a blueprint of what my daily walk with God should look like. We ate together every day, met together for prayer every morning, had morning devotions every day, had a study every evening. Each day we did some work of help. I tried handing out tracts to people and reading them to them, I asked a lady how to pronounce Spanish words so I could.

What a beautiful eight days of my life! I dreamt of starting a mission trip to Portage, of inviting my neighborhood into my home for bible studies, of handing out tracts and telling people about Jesus, heaven, hell, and god. These are my dreams. They're even bigger than I can put on paper. I dream of Christians who would sell everything and live together, meeting every morning for prayer and evening to share and learn. Each day to go out and share the gospel and lend help.

I have a plan for the next 90 days starting tomorrow. I hope two: choose a one day a week to fast, read through the bible, pray every morning, read and learn from " the love dare"

7 Weeks Pregnant (didn't know it yet)